Countdown

Ok. So I'm only a few days away from this wedding. hello. Ernesto? Go away! We don't need any! They are saying it will go through on Friday now. Yesterday they said it would come through on Satuday! I'm crossing my fingers. My parents should be here tomorrow. I'm not sure what other stuff I have to do. I'm sure something... I just can't remember lol


I can't believe i'ts been a year since Hurricane Katrina. I watched the special on NBC last night. Man, it makes me angry all over again. I can't even imagine what I'd do, how i'd react or what. I'd probably just have left but I realize not everyone can.

Charlie is at the gym. Must be nice. He must have a wedding dress to fit into. Ha! He should stay here and let ME go. lol I haven't been going because I have nathan. He has his kindergarten assessment today. That should be fun. The whole school district is screwed up this year. Kids don't have schedules, teachers are being changed. Today? Who knows. they say that he has a guy named Mr Pate. But I heard after the assessment it might change. I'm going to write a letter to the school board. Perhaps Ill go in and sit with them. Something needs to be done. The principal is just such an ass. 19 teachers put in for a transfer. what does that tell you?

Anyhow, I need to go get the girls up for school... .

Getting Close!

holy cow.

I'm days away from this wedding. Why on w hy am I a nervous wreck. my stress level is beyond high. Charlie's been gone for what seems like forever. The kids go back to school on Friday. ... brb... it's lightening..

Snap

Well I don't know what the cause is for sure...

but I know I snapped tonight.

I haven't been on any antidepressant/mood stabilizing drugs for about 7 weeks. Probably not the best time to go off of them LOL
I'm supposed to get married September 2nd. I don't have everything paid for yet. I need about $2500 by the 19th of this month. We're praying for a bonus check on the 15th.
My kids have been horrible. Making messes, running in the house, sliding down the steps, not sleeping until late at night and waking early in the mornings.
Charlies been out of town since 3 on Sunday. he was supposed to come home tonight but didn't. He'll be home *sometime tomorrow*. I've had it. I feel like I'm so stressed. Charlie has been so tired that when he's home he doesn't want to do anything. So my yard isn't getting tended to. Nothings getting done. I have to do the laundry, the cleaning, the yard work, the child raising, the bill paying, the wedding planner, the wedding stresser. I'm not sure what his role is in this house!!!!! Just going to work? Well shit. Sign me up.
So tonight? I've had it.

I just spent hours cleaning my kitchen. 2 garbage bags full of garbage. Throwing away everything. Emptied every cabinet and wiped it down. used Clorox clean up on the outsides, scrubbed the floors on my hands and knees. I threw an empty milk cartoon towards Megan because she didn't throw it away. I swear. She's lucky it wasn't full. Oddly enough? I feel much better. Brooke tried to talk to me and I told her to shut up. So she went and wrote me a note that asked " mom can Megan and me clean my room tomorrow" I hung it on the refrigerator. I feel bad but I think it needed to happen. They need to know that this shit is done. I'm not a freaking maid. We have too many people in this house for no one to have responsibility for their stuff.

holy hot

The news said that today the heat index is going to be 115. Blech. We've turned the AC up in our house. Normally it's like 72'ish? And now it's about 75/76. It's still making a big difference in the house. Who wants to even be outside. Not me!

We went to Virginia Beach on Friday with Charlie's biological family. We had a really good time. Friday and most of Saturday we just stayed at the hotel and beach. We went to the boardwalk area and got one of those bikes that hold the whole family. We peddled our butts for like 2-2 1/2 miles . I think it felt like 12. It was soooo hot. We went out on Saturday to some Irish Pub to see Chuck play in a band. Megan freaking loved it! She was quite the little groupie!

Oh yesterday I went and looked at my bridal portraits. Hello!. Can we say fat? It's funny because in my head? I don't look as fat as I did in my pictures. LOL Out of 20 pictures-- I picked 6.. and narrowed it down to 4. I should have them back rather quickly. Good.

I have to go make lunch.. perhaps ill be back!